Long Story: Miles Away!

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“ You can trust me. “

That’s what I heard him say before I reached out and took my vibrator. I bought one for myself recently. I took off my top and he watched me as I did. I had decided not to wear a bra. My skin was bare to his view. I could see him getting hard. I saw the bulge in his pants. We were both getting absorbed into the moment. I wondered how two people connected over a digital screen could bring such sexual energy into the room.

He was a thousand miles away from me. Never have I ever cursed the distance so much in my life. I felt the emotions flooding inside of me with every passing day. I was overwhelmed. I was in love with him. Sidharth.

It’s been over 5 months since I met this amazing guy. I never believed in Online love until now. It was a night just like this. I was scrolling through the reels as usual when I got the message pop up on my notification bar and it showed,

‘@sidh.shankr_ wants to send you a message’

I had no idea who he was. Just some random stranger maybe. I thought. Usually, creeps keep texting and spamming my dm. I think most girls do experience that part, but the name felt familiar. I checked my message requests.

• ‘ Hey, Tara. I think you don’t know me. I’m Vishal’s friend, Sidharth. ‘

I still remember his first message.

• ‘Oh! Hi Sidharth. Vishal never told me about you.’

Vishal and I work in the same thesis group. He was a friend of mine.

• ‘ yeah. I understand. But it’s just that I’ve been watching your videos over his story. So wanted to tell you that you are awesome. I love your content.’

I’m just a regular girl in Andheri doing my graduation and dealing with the hectic Dissertation. Been dealing with the same for over 3 months now. And it finally is coming to an end. So now that I got some free time and since it’s lockdown I used to upload few dance clips of mine on my feed. It was shared on story by a few of my friends. Vishal was one of them.

• ‘Thank you, Sidharth. It’s just some lockdown things I’m doing currently.’

The conversation ended with him saying

• “Cool. You are talented. Glad that I stumbled across you.”

And I smiled reading that. It felt good.

Two days later I saw the same guy on Vishal’s story singing a song, so melodious while his fingers perfectly played the guitar in tune. He sang so well. I felt like dancing to his music. It was soft and melodious. So calm. I decided to check his profile. I liked a few of his recent videos. They were so good. I had a look at his pics. Straight hair..which grew long covering his temples, ends of his lips curving up in his every pic. He was a really cute guy. Suddenly a message popped up again.

• ‘ Someone was stalking me! ‘

A smile grew on my face. Although it was a cocky text, I liked that.

• ‘I can’t help but listen to your songs again and again.’

I replied honestly.

• ‘Thank you. Made my day hearing it from such a talented and pretty girl like you.’

I blushed to that but rolled my eyes too. Flirt.! I noted in my mind.

• ‘So where are you from?’

I asked. And it began like that. He was a student doing his graduation on applied arts in Georgia. He was quite talented. And more fun. We used to talk. He used to send me random songs that he recorded in between the chats. I just loved his voice..his eyes.

Whenever we had a new feed up, we shared it. Conversations began on that and went on for hours. Throughout the day to throughout the night. We exchanged our contact numbers after 2 weeks. He was fun. He was a flirt. But an amazing flirt. Sometimes I would just burst out laughing at his remarks and sometimes I would flirt back. It was so easy to talk to him. About anything and everything.

I was vulnerable during the time. I had gotten out of a toxic relationship which I was stuck in for over 2 years. The scars were still there. Unhealed. I was verbally abused and was left broken by the time I managed to get out of it. There was this feeling inside of me like I never will be enough. The company of Sidh was making things better for me. He knew I was single but,

• ‘Hey, Do u have a crush on someone or sort of something like that ?’

He asked all of a sudden one day. I did had a crush on him. But I kept mum. And somehow he managed to get the story on my past out of me that day.

I told him how I was mistreated last time. And by the time I finished tears were rolling down my cheeks. There was no reply from him for some time. After a minute I heard my phone ring. It was Sidh.

“ I feel so bad after hearing this, Tara. You honestly deserved so much better than the shit you had to go through. I don’t understand why someone would treat you like that. “

He said over the call. That day after such a long time, his words made me feel worthy once again.

The chats turned to phone calls and video calls..to this day when we are making love to our bodies, eyes glued on each other through the screen.

Sidh backed off a little from the screen, stood up, and took off his T-shirt. His body was perfect. I wanted to touch him. He smiled at me looking at the camera.

He kept slowly rubbing him over the pants. It made me so excited. My body got warm just by watching him do it. He nodded his head gesturing me to start as well. I switched on my vibrator, laid down on the bed my face tilted to the side looking at my laptop on the table. I gently brought the vibrator down my body and placed it over my naval over panties. The only fabric which covered me at that moment. He took off his boxers and my eyes scanned his glorious form. He was long. I could only wish if he was near me right now. I wanted to feel his touch so bad. I tossed my panties to the floor. The vibrator touched my folds and one of my hands massaged my breasts. My eyes went closed as I felt a knot inside of me. My breaths started getting heavy. I saw him stroking himself faster. Eyes filled with lust watching me close. Scanning my every inch of skin. The only thing separating us being this digital screen. We came together. That was my first.

I texted him in the morning.

• ‘Morning Sidh.’

I got a reply in less than 10 minutes saying,

‘ Morning Tarz’

He said he was busy making a video. I understand shoot days can be hectic sometimes. So I told him to take his time and text me once he was done. He video called in the evening. We talked for some time. But when I tried to talk about the night we shared, he quickly slipped past it. And I don’t know I saw a tinge of guilt or a similar emotion which I am still unsure about in his eyes. It felt weird. We talked some more and bid goodbye to each other hanging up. It was a casual conversation.

Days passed. It felt as if something was off. The frequency of chats decreased. And I was honestly starting to get worried. I would see him online. But he won’t reply to my texts. I wanted to meet him. Hug him. Kiss him. Stay close to him. But it wasn’t possible. I never believed something online would work out so well. And I didn’t want it to go wrong. I decided to ask him unable to hold these thoughts within myself knowing he is being distant.

• ‘Did I do something wrong Sidh? You are avoiding me.’

I texted him over Wapp. He was online. As soon as he saw the text, I received his call.

“Hey. I was honestly busy Tara. It’s the pandemic spreading so fast and I can’t help, it’s getting worse. I think I might be infected. I feel sick.”

It got me so worried. I video called him but he seemed fine. I asked him if he’s having any symptoms and he said he wanted to know if I cared for him. He had this very mischievous smile on his face.

“ You are so cute when you have that concerned look on your face Tara. I want to meet you very soon. And I wanna date you. “ He said.

And I immediately cursed myself to doubt his intentions at least for a moment.

“ Can we do it again? “ He asked hopefully.

And that night we repeated our way of lovemaking once again.

The next day I decided to talk to Vishal because I never once told him about Sidh and me. I thought it was time we told our friends about us. Me and Vishal…we are not close friends. But he needed to know about this first as Sidh was his friend. I left him a text.

• ‘ Hey, Vishal. I wanted to tell you something. ‘

I got a reply after few minutes.

• ‘ Yeah, Tara…any update on the thesis ?’
• ‘ No… it is something else. Do you know Sidharth? ‘

I don’t know why. But my insides started to feel heavy all of a sudden. Maybe I’m being anxious and excited at the same time to reveal my online relationship to my friends. I thought.

• ‘ Yes, Tara. He is my sister’s boyfriend. Why? ‘

My world came crashing down and I felt my guts fall through my feet. I sat there not knowing what to reply….

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