Vanity Fair Not So Fair!
Ever wondered why people are rude for no reason at all? Arrogance, attitude, pride, vanity are no more things one should be ashamed of if one possesses them. Whereas being considerate is the same as being meek as per some.
And I never agreed to any of this but each day I sight some one being rude, some one snapping at me or others for no obvious reason, scowling at some, or looking at you with sheer disbelief as they mouth the word, “are you kidding me?” or just a shrug of the shoulder accompanied by a “who cares?” spat in your direction…and it makes me wonder..am I the one reading a little too much in these not so polite gestures or am I right in actually being put off by such people. And since I don’t live in a 24.7 rudeness mode, whenever people assert themselves a little too much to the point of being aggressive, I am always caught off guard and this incipient rage starts to simmer deep somewhere in my guts, and snapping back would be my first reflex and the least I would do ( trust me I have a history of being a bully), but instead I say something innocuous and try to laugh it off, trying to be the wiser one ofcourse.
In such moments I feel like, what guys must have felt like when they have huge arguments with their girlfriends and all they manage to say are things like, “what are you talking about?”, “I never said that”, “ its your choice if you wanna leave” or “ you are getting me all wrong”, but rarely would you find them talking at the same pitch and saying the same kind of nasty things that their girl is saying, for if they were to do the same, then they would be saying the same old things a little differently, something like “ you are talking crap”, “ gosh are you suffering from short term memory loss, I never said something like that”, “just get the hell out of here”, “ I pity your brain functioning for you don’t seem to get anything right”. Doesn’t this all sound a lot more nastier, meaner, and of course bitchier? It does because it is and the audacity to say such things is generally found among girls.
From where I see it, and forgetting the fact that I am girl, I feel that women use arrogance as a piece of accessory, something to compliment that roll of tongue as they slur in our second preferred language, English, something to go with those handbags that rest on their arms and those huge sunglasses clipping their head above their forehead. And at times it is also used as an ammunition to silent the ‘meek’ ones, who mind you were doing nothing but were giving you the equal right to speak.
I know what it feels like to be meek, it feels like you are roaming around naked and hope not to be called a slut by your mates, in other words its like not protecting yourself from unexpected spats and attitude, its letting your guard down, and I always let my guard down so I could relate better to the other person and reach out to him or her, but I recoil when they bite off my hand just trying to support them and instead say things like, “ who gives a shit about what others have to say?” while innately they know what matters the most to them is how people think about them and thus when I suggest them something, its only in line with what they intend to achieve admiration from many, and attention from all.
But alas! People like me are always thought of as someone who is just tagging along because I got nothing better to do, just because I don’t assert myself so sharply as to silent everyone and just because I am not prancing about.
Now I know I sound like a saint, and which I am not, but there are times when I forget the fact that I am a girl, my question is why do I have to be treated so rudely by my girlfriends and other girls when I side step from my gender role and instead just try to help them? Why cant I protect myself from other people’s bitterness?
Why cant I express myself and yet do so without dominating anyone or ridiculing anyone? Guess I wont have an answer to these questions for a long long time
